Baby #2!

 I know, I know, I'm 29 weeks along and I'm just announcing our baby #2 on my blog....

We decided to get pregnant back in October. Josh was working at Kinnser Software, making more money that we had had before. I was working part time but just to help pay off some debts and save up for a house. We decided we would talk to the bank as a first step to buying a house, in January.

Then, on Dec. 15, Josh called me at lunch and said, "I have really bad news. The entire office is being laid off." I can't even being to tell you how shocked we both were. We had had a Christmas party with Kinnser a couple weeks prior and they made all of these promises with Josh's office. And then boom. Done. He went to work, they fired everyone and Josh came home at lunch time with a full box, and an empty heart. I think I cried that entire afternoon. I had no idea what we would do. I was about 10 weeks pregnant. We had had insurance through Josh's job and that was ending. How would I go to doctor appointments? What about Nolan's upcoming surgery? How would we survive on my part-time income? What do we do now?

Josh decided to use this experience as a way to gain more skill and change directions a bit. He took a 9 week course on web development. It ended first week of March. They said that with the last group, they had 94% job placement rate and the average time was 2 months to find a job.

He has now been unemployed for 4 months, but only out of his class for about 5 weeks. He has applied for jobs, hasn't had any formal interviews, though.

But, during his class, he and his friend worked on a political website and caught the eye of one of the instructors who said, "I know a retired Congressman who might be interested in this!"

That retired Congressman is Chris Cannon and he wants Josh and his 2 friends to build a website for him to start a company with him. The website is done now and Chris is calling around to get funding for this company. Chris is pretty confident it can get funding in the next few weeks, but we will see.

I am trying to have faith that this will all work out before the baby's born. But I've got to admit, I have never been more worried, scared and depressed in my life.

I see everyone else move on, out of Provo, buying homes, etc. and we're still here. I want to quit work, stay home with my babes, move on with my life, but here I am, still answering the question, "What are you going to do next year, Amy?" with "I don't know."

When I was pregnant with Nolan, I was so worried about his health and well-being. The silver lining to this whole situation is that this baby, baby #2, is growing much better than Nolan and so far as no problems. I am relieved about that.

We found out at 20 weeks that it's a boy!!

I am bigger than normal. I'll show you this pic, as long as you promise not to say, "Wow, you don't even look pregnant!" haha.

Feeling good, just a bit tired and fat. I try working out but it makes me soooo tired!!

With working, taking care of Nolan, preparing for Nolan's third surgery, helping Josh find a job and working on his startup business, and being 2nd counselor in the Relief Society--I have put exercise as a last priority, I'll admit it!

But when this baby is born, I have a goal to participate in a triathlon!

We have all but decided this baby's name will be Bennett Michael Hancock. My official due date is July 2, but I will probably be induced on June 25th.